So It Begins…

In one month I’ll be 25 year’s old.
I had planned to be a lot further in life by age 24, and nearly none of those plans have been completed. Instead I’ve been wasting my time pursuing a career I don’t even enjoy, for an organization I find impossible to relate to. I had planned to have my own game studio going strong by now, instead – I’m finally coming to the realization that I HAVE to get out of the HealthCare IT industry and pursue what I wanted to do with my life since I was a child. Game Development. It’s going to be a long process, but I’ve managed to build up some important contacts that I believe can help me achieve my goals. Primarily, Smith – a Canadian (lol) Software Engineer is helping me get back into the development game. I’m very far behind, and I’m pretty much learning everything from the ground up. Everything I was familiar with before I became a Database Administrator (only really working in MSSQL) is either obsolete or completely forgotten. That being said, I’m taking my time, and beginning with a C# IRC Chat Bot. I’ve dubbed him JarvisBot. I’ll be building up commands and such to moderate my own channel ( as well as integrating it with the Venture Forth Gaming Community (VN4) app that Smith’s been developing.

Smith’s asked me to help him build up VN4, helping manage streaming schedule, leading teams, organizing events, amongst other things. When I agreed to it, I’m not sure I really knew what I was agreeing to, and I’m still not really sure I really know. But I’ve met quite a few great and interesting people (mostly Canadian so far), and I’m quite happy I’ve agreed to help get things rolling. We have a lot of work before we can really call ourselves a real Gaming Community, but this desktop application Smith’s working will be the base of our community. I just hope I prove myself useful as time goes on, because I feel pretty useless at the moment. Stumbling my way through what I feel are the stupidest, easiest things – that are harder than I think they should be for me. I’m overwhelmed by how much of my life I’ve already wasted, but I’m aiming to make up for it.

I want to be completely out of the HealthCare Industry within 2 years. If possible maybe even working full-time on game development at or around 2-3 years from now. That’s going to be really tough, with how much I need to learn, and how little time is really available to concentrate on the projects I need to complete in order to make sure I DO learn the things I need. I take some solace in the fact Smith will be learning Unity from the ground up as well, though he’ll probably grasp it quicker and easier than me – I hope him learning it at the same time will help smooth over the roadblocks and disconnects I’ll be running into a little bit. It’s going to be an interesting adventure, but it’s time – time to Venture Forth, take control of my life finally instead of satisfying everyone else’s plans for me. It’s going to be rough, mostly because I feel like dead weight on Smith, I’m thankful he’s been patient with me, and hope I can become an asset that can give back at some point rather than constantly taking from him.

Until then, to quote what was once my favorite podcasts LondonReal – “It’s about the Journey!” and I plan to make it one hell of a journey. Hopefully I’ll keep up to date with this blog, because honestly I need a place to vent lately – and clear my thoughts. My mind’s been cluttered and wondering a lot lately, and this is a great way to help re-organize it, and make sense of things going through my head. Even if reading it back won’t make sense HA!