It’s been awhile

So, I started this site, planning on updating it pretty regularly with updates on who I am, what I’ve been doing, and how I’m developing as a person to become a better version of myself. Well, as you can see, I haven’t posted anything until now since I started the site. So lets see if we can’t update things.

I’ve developed (with a lot of help from my friend in Canadia) a C# comprehensive training application that can essentially become an add-on to any application you have running/declare it to run on. It works great, but the main application I need it to run on reuses a lot of classes in their UI for a huge variant of things. Basically, causing my application to add extra icons to search in random places of the application that I can’t seem to filter out. I’m not really sure how to resolve the issues so I can finally deploy it, so it’s kind of rotting atm.

I’ve also started a big project using Ruby on Rails, I’m developing a web based application that I essentially want to be a yelp! on steroids. I don’t want to go into too many details here, essentially because I want it to be what it to blossom into my organisation with a close friend of mine and we can become fully self sufficient. I’m learning a lot with this project, mostly you know, EVERYTHING there is about Ruby on Rails and web development in general. Development of a database for a web platform seems quite different from what I’m used to with my typically .NET & MSSQL db I work with on a daily bases – though I may just be over thinking things since I’m starting from the ground up.

Outside of these two projects, I haven’t really done much, I haven’t been taking very good care of myself. I’ve gained quite a bit of weight, which I’ve made a conscious decision this week to lose it. So far I’ve lost 8lbs, I’m pretty happy with that, typically I’d say it’s a lot too fast, but none of the weight I’ve gained so far has really… “settled in”, and is pretty easy to shed I think initially. I’ll run into a wall soon, and will need to start changing more and more bad habits but I’m easing into it and seeing progress with every step.

What else? hrmmm, well there’s the whole girl of my dreams thing. I’m not sure if she knows or not, she’s probably blind if she doesn’t cause everyone else in the world seems to know. I’m not really sure why I can’t bring myself to just be with her, we’re friends now… it shouldn’t be difficult to just, be honest with her about how I feel. But it is. I tear myself down far too much, it’s hard for me to let myself have what I really want. Especially when it’s such an amazing woman like her, every part of me just wants to see her happy… and sometimes, I just don’t feel like I’d be able to make or keep her happy…

anywho, until next time~ thanks for listening to me rant. PEACE!